School Rules!

Hello to all of my friends in blogland :)



My children are all in school as of yesterday, except for the baby, of course.



We brought my daughter to college on August 20th, as planned and, although it was a very difficult day, it went well overall. She is 1 1/2 hours away from us and is really enjoying college. She is calling less than I would like, but I think it is better this way then if she was calling all the time if she was lonely for example.



It was evidence again that life goes on after one of your children dies. The college didn't make "move-in" day the next day because our family lost one of our children on August 20th. Time keeps marching along, but my heart is still mourning little Caleb.



House is quiet. The baby is sleeping. She was awake later than usual because she wasn't feeling well yesterday. I have a million things to get done, but I wanted to try and write a blog entry because it has been more than a month since my last one.



I noticed that my youngest (living) son was asked yesterday on a "take-home" paper how many people were in his family. He had written down 9. Last year he was really saddened when they asked him to draw a picture of his family and he left out Caleb. I don't that he wanted to have to explain to anyone that he had a younger brother, but he had died. This year maybe a little healing has gone on because he included Caleb. Thank you God. Healing takes time. Some days I'm not sure that I've healed at all, other days I feel like I've come a long way.



Looking forward to some cooler New England weather.

9/3/2010

Just read an awesome book called "Holding on to Hope". It is about loss and suffering. As I was reading the book, I thought that I could have been the one to write it because she wrote just how I have felt through my trial. It was beautiful and spoke to me personally. The author is Nancy Guthrie and I highly recommend it for anyone, even though it speaks about child loss, it is written for any kind of loss/suffering. It is an easy read.

I am so excited to be able to get a little more housework done while the children are in school. It seems almost funny to enjoy scrubbing :)

I want to get back into my scrapbooking and I think that I will sign up for an all day crop this fall. I haven't spent any time away from my baby, who will be 1 in October. She is still nursing and has a lot of separation issues. I'm sure that my family will be able to care for her though and she will do fine...if she can't see me she tends not to cry as much...The minute she hears/sees me, then she cries! I think that I need that time with my friends and need to feel productive again with my albums. I miss my friends at times, so I will look forward to this.

I hope that you are all doing well. I love to read your posts and keep up with your families, etc.

I read a saying tonight...not sure who wrote it, but it said "If the mountain was smooth, you wouldn't be able to climb it"... pretty simple but profound statement...my life is a witness to that truth. I would never be as close to God if it hadn't been for the tragedy in my life.

I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world. John 16:33

With Love and Hope,
Cheryl