Trials

I'm learning that as I grow older the Lord is orchestrating things in my life that I never would have chosen for myself.  I am being humbled by the trials that I have had to face and am really struggling at times.

I'm not really sure what God wants me to do at times in these trials and I question whether I have done enough in the past or if I could have done more to prevent some of my trials.

I am sure of some things though.

God sees me in my trials and comforts me.

Sometimes it is in the form of God's Word coming alive to me.  I find that when I am in the midst of a great trial I am drawn to the Bible more desperately than ever before.

God hears my pleas of mercy and my cries in prayer and comforts me as only He can in seemingly insurmountable afflictions.

God uses people on this earth...both Christians and non-Christians to offer an ear, hand, heart to help me bear the weight of my trials.

When one has borne the grief of losing a son and other trials present themselves it is as though you are thrust into another sort of grief.  It is a grief concerning the loss of something that you thought would play out a certain way in your life, the way that God (in a perfect world) would have liked things to have turned out, and somehow it was not meant to be that simple.

Draw close to God and he will draw near to you.  True words.

As a song "He Knows My Name" from Tommy Walker wrote states...

He knows my name.
He hears me when I call.
He knows each tear that falls.
And He hears me when I call.
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You have seen me tossing and turning through the night.  You have collected all my tears and preserved them in your bottle!  You have recorded every one in your book.  Psalm 56:8

May my eyes always be open Lord...

And Elisha prayed, “Open his eyes, Lord, so that he may see.” Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha.   2 Kings 6:17

Please Lord help me and my family through our trials and help me to glorify You through my life.  Make this mess beautiful somehow...only the way You can...